I’ve had an exciting few days. I got a phone call from an unknown number while I was at work on Friday. It was the fertility pharmacy calling to set everything up because Dr. V had called in the prescriptions for our IVF cycle. I hadn’t heard whether our insurance had approved IVF for us yet, so I just assumed they were just preparing so that everything would be in place for when (fingers crossed) we got the go ahead from them.
As it turns out, my cousin works at this pharmacy. Since we haven’t told anyone really except for our immediate families, I was sort of nervous that she’d see my name come across her desk and it would get out. I know there are laws about revealing information, I wasn’t worried that she’s unethical in any way, just that she’d maybe be excited for us and let something slip. I decided to just text her and give her a heads up that we didn’t want anyone knowing until after we were safely pregnant. She was SO excited for us, and assured me that she would never say anything without checking with me first.
She looked my file right up and assured me that I have the best insurance possible for this stuff. I told her how I was worried that certain meds wouldn’t be covered, or that the copays would be astronomical. She told me she’d get me a total by the end of the night and to let her know if I had any problems with insurance or anything because that’s what she deals with at work. Which gave me an idea. Wouldn’t it be great to just have her be my contact person and not have to even deal with anyone else? I’d have my own inside-man. I’d know I wasn’t getting any kind of run-around, and I could ask whatever I needed to because she’s my cousin and she’d be understanding with me instead of thinking I’m that annoying patient that needs to hear something 3 times ‘just to be sure.’ I asked and she said she’d LOVE to! haha. She gave me the total of my co-pays about an hour later and I was very happy and relieved. Then she called on Sunday to get my credit card info on file and discuss shipment. I have a weight check a week from tomorrow, and as long as I pass that, I’ll call her and she’ll arrange shipment.
On Sunday afternoon, on a whim, because of all this, I decided to check my patient portal at the clinic to see if there was any info, since they had called in the meds. There was an email saying that insurance has approved our IVF cycle! Had I been checking, I would’ve seen that before getting the call from the pharmacy. They did things in order, I just found out out-of-order! The email said that I was to come in for my weight check on 5/3, if I pass, then I’ll take my last BC that day, and return for blood work and an US on 5/6, and receive instructions that afternoon about the meds (cue the pressure to lose the last few pounds! I have 8 days and 4 pounds left).
I texted a screenshot of the email to DH, who was gone for the day at the racetrack with his cousins. He texted back that he was so excited and that it made him tear up. I just can’t believe we’re starting. I’m crazy nervous. I’m scared it won’t work. Even though I actually feel like it will. I guess just because, as far as we know, the only issue is the sperm. We feel like, since we’re doing ICSI, there’s really no reason why it won’t work on the first try (I know, I know. If it doesn’t work, I’ll be posting that ecard that says “Oh you thought IVF would work on the first try? That’s so cute” I almost feel dumb for feeling so positive about it). It’s really weird being so sure it will work, but so scared it won’t all at the same time.
I told my mom the good news but fudged on the timing. I want a chance to be a little farther along before we tell people, even our immediate family. So many of my fellow bloggers have lost their little nuggets in the last few weeks. It’s broken my heart for them, and made me feel a lot more cautious about revealing anything too soon. It’s not that I would hide a MC, I guess for some reason, I would just rather reveal a MC, than tell them I’m PG, and then have to tell them I’ve MC’ed a week later or something. I feel like, for me, the former would be the lesser of the evils. So I’m hoping to keep them a few weeks behind where we actually are in the process. I did say I’d be starting medication soon that ‘prepares’ your cycle for the Dr.s to mess around with it. That way I have an excuse for side effects. We’ll see how it goes.
Other than that, I essentially did laundry all weekend 😉